Just walk!

Hi!,,,

WALK

I don’t know if for some of you is hard but for me was very challenging. Yesterday I adventure myself for a 2.00mi walk. I noticed in the beginning I started very confident but the more I walk, the more my impatient self got frustrated, knowing that I have walk just 2.00mi in the same time I run 3.50mi. I know I’m just recovering for my recent ankle injury but OMG is driving me nuts.

So there my mind goes during my walk:

“I want to run”

“I can not run”

” I might just run 0.25mi”

” No, no that might be too much for my ankle”

” Come on,  just walk”

“Walk faster”

And etc…

I was fighting the fact that I’m just doing the most I can for the moment. I know that, but sometimes that frustrating thoughts win.

Is part of being human.

It going to take time, I just need to be more patient.

I also have a good goal for the rest of the year,  is loss weight. Always my goal since the beginning was running, but I have been incorporating more stuff but my weight never was an issue or a problem or concern or something I have to worry about. But after the injury like I wrote in my previous post I lost myself a little too much and that was never the plan but now that I’m refocusing myself, is going to be a priority along with walking and getting myself back to running hopefully before the year-end.

Looking forward to write more about my journey.


Thanks for visiting!

C.P.

I’m not running anymore! (raw)

Hi…

This post is going to be RAW and REAL/ Unedited

I just want to write a little bit about what is happening to me. You know I keep this blog as my journey for running and more stuff. But I haven’t post anything is so long. Also I’m tired of making excuses every post I made about why I’m not running but I wanted to keep it real, this is my real life. Btw… sorry for the dramatic tittle…

Let start!

I movedto this new state here in United States that so far so good. It was a little bit of the stuggle to keep motivated for me and there is many reason that I prefer to keep private but that is not a big deal for me. I’m not putting my problems first, I’m going to put myself first. Yep maybe sound or in this case read a little bit selfish, but if I don’t do it for me how then?

I have gained so much weight since I have the baby that now I’m in my heaviest. (Something that I’m not proud to write) but as I told you I’m going to keep it real. I have try many time to running again since I had my baby girl, but I don’t know Why is so hard to keep going with the motivation, time manage, the house, the baby, the husband. and some people said the house mom is not a work. I work more than 12 hours a day sometimes even more. but let that be another post. I’m not here write about this. I feel like I’m wtiting with someone. It feel so good to have a little time to express myself right now.

Recently I went to my husband work Christmas party. They took family pictures and then print it so we can keep the memory. It was good and fine to me. But there is when I realize I don’t feel comfortable with me, with my skin. I saw the photo, make up on point, good election of clothes, hair on point, even the pose. And there came the but, But my body is not the same, is not what I want. I know that I will never go back to the pre pregnacy weight but DAMN this what a reality check even my family notice. I don’t really care what other think but I knew this is not what I want to look like. Not for somebody, is for me. I always been very activate in sports and I love it but when you lack some motivation is bad you make excuses, a lot of the time to avoid reality.

So the title I’m not running anymore is not forever, but for know I might be concentrating myself to a better diet, eating healthy and doing someting with no so much impact that I might end quiting. Because I know it as a fact.

So this is Raw here:

I have a kidney problems the doctor don’t recommend to drink soda . So I quit drinking soda in 2012 but recently I have been like a crazy craving soda woman, And this is bad fo me. I know it but sometimes I’m not that strong. There is my first Goal. No more soda.

I have a hypothyroidism. Thyroid problem since 2010. I have to keep taking medication and also mantin a diet because this cause a hormonal thing that happen to me with this condition is making me gained wait. Also I’m taking birth control pill that add to my issue too. ( I try to change but the other methods doesn’t work for me). So there is my second Goal Keep taking my medications and have a better diet.

I need to change they way I have been taking care of myself.

I also want to start making exercises 2 to 3 days at week. Something with low impact. ( if you had any recommendation please leave it down in the comment section.)

Thanks for visiting

PS: Sorry for the long post about me but this is real. Also sorry for the grammatic errors or sentence organization. English is not my first language. I also used the blog to practice my writing skills and my husband is not home for helping me with it. so there you have it!

C.P.

Let’s go back in shape!

Current weight 215  pounds Goal for this year 190 or less.

Why I stop running

I don’t know where to start since I lost count of when was my last post.

I’m writing on my phone. Is Nov 24, 2015. 10:28pm

I’m in a state of my mind that right now I don’t know what I want or what is my passion. Few months back I thought that it was running. And I still love running. But this lack of motivation, starting with my weight is winning.

I try to change my mind but the bad stuff is winning.

No excuses! Uff I have tons.
I don’t going to list them but I know that I’m the one putting me down by myself.

I bought new tennis shoes to start running, that was the reason I expend that money on a new pair. But they still in the box in my closet.

Maybe there is another reason of why I’m not running. But I can’t accept that other things are winning.

I need to step up for me but, How?

/Short post/

If you have any suggestions or recommendations for me please feel free of leaving me a comment down below.
It will be appreciate.

Thanks
C.