Running and Meditation

Hi!

(Personal)

Today I going to write about running and meditation.

Why?  I have been expericience some signs of anxiety. It recently develop more since we moved to this new state where everything is new, different and very unusual for our lifestyle.

In 2014 when I had my baby I thought it was depression post partum but it when off. I started at that moment taking yoga classes and meditation, and it help me a lot to handle that issue.

Recently I started to run again since I decided that this is my moment for me, for me , and for me. So I’m thinking if I add to my life a little bit of meditation It could help. Before it work I hope this time too. I need it.

I recently decided to take this step that I have been procastinating for so long but I haven’t the courage to open about it. And now is the time. I know I’m not alone.

I have been suffering anxiety

It took me a long time to talk about this because it hard to accept that something is happening to me. In the moment that I accepted it, I felt a little free.

So I’m considerating add this practice to my routine. Do you meditate?


Today is April 2, 2017.

I ran 0.50mi This run was very peaceful and very quiet. I thank God for this run today.


Yesterday April 1, 2017.

I ran 0.50mi. This  run turns into a dark place when someone decided to be a bully and scream something that I’m not allow myself to repeat because I’m a better person. I’m a good person, that kind of person, if you need me, I will be there for you to help you stand up. I learn that if you cancel the negative, That thought goes away so that was what I did it today and that’s why my run was a succesful one.


Sorry if this is not what you want to read. This is my life and I write about my life. 

This is the Diary of C.P.


Thanks for Visiting

C.P.


PS: I’m deciding if I post this or not… It’s hard to let’s others know this part of me. but I you see it is because I decide to keep it up real. 

Peace and Love C.P

 

 

 

 

I’m not running anymore! (raw)

Hi…

This post is going to be RAW and REAL/ Unedited

I just want to write a little bit about what is happening to me. You know I keep this blog as my journey for running and more stuff. But I haven’t post anything is so long. Also I’m tired of making excuses every post I made about why I’m not running but I wanted to keep it real, this is my real life. Btw… sorry for the dramatic tittle…

Let start!

I movedto this new state here in United States that so far so good. It was a little bit of the stuggle to keep motivated for me and there is many reason that I prefer to keep private but that is not a big deal for me. I’m not putting my problems first, I’m going to put myself first. Yep maybe sound or in this case read a little bit selfish, but if I don’t do it for me how then?

I have gained so much weight since I have the baby that now I’m in my heaviest. (Something that I’m not proud to write) but as I told you I’m going to keep it real. I have try many time to running again since I had my baby girl, but I don’t know Why is so hard to keep going with the motivation, time manage, the house, the baby, the husband. and some people said the house mom is not a work. I work more than 12 hours a day sometimes even more. but let that be another post. I’m not here write about this. I feel like I’m wtiting with someone. It feel so good to have a little time to express myself right now.

Recently I went to my husband work Christmas party. They took family pictures and then print it so we can keep the memory. It was good and fine to me. But there is when I realize I don’t feel comfortable with me, with my skin. I saw the photo, make up on point, good election of clothes, hair on point, even the pose. And there came the but, But my body is not the same, is not what I want. I know that I will never go back to the pre pregnacy weight but DAMN this what a reality check even my family notice. I don’t really care what other think but I knew this is not what I want to look like. Not for somebody, is for me. I always been very activate in sports and I love it but when you lack some motivation is bad you make excuses, a lot of the time to avoid reality.

So the title I’m not running anymore is not forever, but for know I might be concentrating myself to a better diet, eating healthy and doing someting with no so much impact that I might end quiting. Because I know it as a fact.

So this is Raw here:

I have a kidney problems the doctor don’t recommend to drink soda . So I quit drinking soda in 2012 but recently I have been like a crazy craving soda woman, And this is bad fo me. I know it but sometimes I’m not that strong. There is my first Goal. No more soda.

I have a hypothyroidism. Thyroid problem since 2010. I have to keep taking medication and also mantin a diet because this cause a hormonal thing that happen to me with this condition is making me gained wait. Also I’m taking birth control pill that add to my issue too. ( I try to change but the other methods doesn’t work for me). So there is my second Goal Keep taking my medications and have a better diet.

I need to change they way I have been taking care of myself.

I also want to start making exercises 2 to 3 days at week. Something with low impact. ( if you had any recommendation please leave it down in the comment section.)

Thanks for visiting

PS: Sorry for the long post about me but this is real. Also sorry for the grammatic errors or sentence organization. English is not my first language. I also used the blog to practice my writing skills and my husband is not home for helping me with it. so there you have it!

C.P.

Let’s go back in shape!

Current weight 215  pounds Goal for this year 190 or less.

Why I stop running

I don’t know where to start since I lost count of when was my last post.

I’m writing on my phone. Is Nov 24, 2015. 10:28pm

I’m in a state of my mind that right now I don’t know what I want or what is my passion. Few months back I thought that it was running. And I still love running. But this lack of motivation, starting with my weight is winning.

I try to change my mind but the bad stuff is winning.

No excuses! Uff I have tons.
I don’t going to list them but I know that I’m the one putting me down by myself.

I bought new tennis shoes to start running, that was the reason I expend that money on a new pair. But they still in the box in my closet.

Maybe there is another reason of why I’m not running. But I can’t accept that other things are winning.

I need to step up for me but, How?

/Short post/

If you have any suggestions or recommendations for me please feel free of leaving me a comment down below.
It will be appreciate.

Thanks
C.